what if I

What if I
just stop
being so hard
just stop
being so soft
what if i just stop with the please please please
with the I’m sorry I’m Sorry I’M SORRY
and hang on
and let go
and just laugh and cry and smile and rage and real and true and honest
what if i just stop not putting on make up
what if i just nine it up for a high heeled change
what if i just
cracked at the seams
and didn’t give a shit
what anyone else had to say about it
what if I just let this be the most important thing I will do today
just stop waiting for something to happen
while day turned into night then back again
what then?